I'm really fucking scared.

I fucked up my life up by failing my midterms.

If I don't get A's on them, I will probably be kicked out.

And then i'd be in some predicament.

i'd either stay at purchase, switch to art + design conservatory to graphic design

or Columbia College

or pretty much my last resort is UCF.

Or that school in CaLI that yonster wants to go to, they have a major for costumes for film and tv.

I'm in it!!!!

I drilled several holes in a piece of wood.

A first. I can use a staple gun now.

Still no saw usage. Lets see how far i can play this game.

I can whatever I want about the Once Act. Sorry if you were mad by my costume comments. But its only for the best. It would be even worse if I didnt make any comments 'cause then I wouldnt care.

So get over it. I know what I'm saying is right.

i just saw the pictures from the one act.

tiny costume suggestions:

fucking iron them

and either sew the edges of the togas or seal it with clear nail polish so that the edges arent frayed.

better fix that for districts, cause i can tell from the pictures!!!

do it for me.

have fun at FTC.


oh regina on jay leno tonight!!!! go watch!

Another amazing night, its good to be royalty.

p.s. regina in 21 days.

Today I drew the whole day!!!!

I helped clean tilly and jaff's room.

its madd clean and i love it. we connected the tv. i havent watched tv since i've been here.

till and i ordered chinese and had a picnic indoors.

it was so cutie.

i am so happy my drawing is so good. i'll have to scan, i went from drawing the most atrocious faces yesterday to actually capturing The Donnas.

My Vaudeville/joseph cornell box is almost done.

Crew next week is only from 3-6!!!!!!!!! and no College Writing.....But research for the Huge project.

Right now there are mad people in here dancing....oh geez.

Zachy lips are as soft as baby's/<33333333

I love Purchase, and Aileen you better come here, people you have never met gave you free weed. We watched dyke movies!!!! This is yr school.

This school is magical.

hopefully next week I'll feel well enough to let myself have fun and go into the city saturday 'cause i would have gotten a lot of work on my paper done.

I'm tired.

Don't want to go to Electrics Crew.

I want to sleep forever.

I have to leave in 20 minutes.

Whatever Electrics crew for me consists of holding a ladder for 3 hours, yeah.

When I get out I have to go to Micheals to get some art supplies.

Then I have to research for my paper until 10.

Then party. Sleep.

Saturday: Wake up. Eat. And then work on my paper til 5. eat. work on it some more til 8.

Party.

Sunday: Wake up. eat. finish paper. Go to Studio, start model all over again.

Monday after call. Finish model

Tuesday: 8-11 am work on model some more, then at 12 turn it in!!!!!!

so

i wish i were at some crappy school that didnt expect perfection,

i vomited this morning again.

i am way tom nervous since i got here.

since i think i'm gonna get kicked out.

really the only person who makes me feel nice is my friend candice, shes pretty much everything rihgt now.

i'm so happy i found someone to acknowledge as a BFFL <333 and she loves me alot alot alot.

i get ALOT of hugs from her.

and end of venting:::/love


ladytron on wednesday is going to save my life.

<33

that video was taken with my phone, with no zoom. yes i was that close. i was waiting for many hours in front of the venue.

was i the onyl fuckers who didnt know yale was in new haven, ct? i get there and yale is like two minutes away from the venue.

my adventures began early. we got there are 4, ate some mexican food and bought regina presents! which included a pink carnation, bubble gum cigarettes, and a beatles patch.

i waited and waited and waited. there was a point where regina was outside the venue for a split second but i didnt see her. do you know why because i was fuckign talking to these girls two feet away from. and like this roadie was liek you know you just missed her. but i couldnt tell u she was there since i could get in trouble.

WTF get in trouble!!!!!

so the concert begins at 9. regina come on around 10ish. she has a cold but sings magically. to see more video go here

it was amazing she was amazing. so i'm all ready to buy my new regina shirt that will be mine forever and not lost. but guess what there was no merch. then my fucking friend lauren, the driver. fucking pulls some shit on me by saying we have to leave like now. i was WTF. You promised!!!! we've been planning this day since the summer.

so leaving the venue of course i'm hysterical and crying in my friends sweater.

w/e so we leave right after the shows over. then spend 30 minutes trying to get out the parking lot. sicne it was fuckign crowded. we get back to purchase at 1:45. i eat the leftovers of mexican and pass out n my friends dorm.

i skip college writing at 8.30. and i feel bad but i was madd tired. and there was no point in my taking caffeine pills yet again to stay awake in that class.

and that was my regina adventure. and since i am very pissed about not meeting her. chicago here i come. october 15th regina you will see me.

hey who has video of antigone and medea

we're reading them in dramatic structure and i told some kids we have done them and we wanna have a little movie night

so if anyone has these

can you mail hem to me quickly?

plz i'll mail you a present,